Hearts

Falling in love is an amazing feeling. In my experience I thought I was in love so many times, but realizing wasn't exactly that, never took me long. I have always experience the same scenario: A guy likes me, he makes something to catch my attention and then we talk for like an hour or two, he gets my number and I wait for the message to arrange a date during the week.

Of course I give my number if the guy is cute, handsome and has an interesting life. But after so many heartbreaks I knew something was wrong with my formula.

Realizing is not love is not that hard, if you know your heart, you can find that answer easily, but if you don't know it, like me, you get fooled by your own desires and needs of the moment.

I think it also has a lot do with maturity, knowing yourself, what you want and how much do you love yourself in order to enter a healthy relationship and not just one that looks good on photographs. People can influence a lot in our choices "Is he handsome?" "Does he have money?" "Where does he live?" "Is his family good?" like if you could assure a happily ever after with only those facts. So how to find true love if it doesn't depend on looks, position, job or family? 

To me hasn't been easy, and I'm sure a lot of people agree with me that is really hard to find love, and I know my mistake was searching for a perfect outside instead of the perfect inside. Is the hardest thing in the world because for that, you have to commit yourself to actually wanting to know the person, his life, his interests, hobbies, flaws, habits good and bad ones, is everything that makes him: HIM, not only if he goes to nice restaurants or have nice cloths, or a good car. Love goes beyond that, and if we search for something real and not an illusion we need to be willing to wait, because knowing someone takes time.  But like a quote of the movie The Perks of Being a Wallflower says "We accept the love we think we deserve". So love yourself in order to wait for the best, for someone who wants to know you for real, and is not a myth, people with perfect hearts do exist.